Fail

Am all fed up and frustrated. Up (relatively) early to start the movie of the LEGO campervan being made. Cannot get the crappy camera to work. It's just whiting out the whole desk. Adjusting the exposure achieves nothing. Just wasting time. Like all week. Was hoping to go away for New Years but no invites forthcoming. Getting P ed off here now.

Am being used as a chaffuer as Ma can't drive. Poor Bumble had to go to Anglia Square!! Added to the frustration and fed up ness.

Still did get to go see Timmykins and meet his two lovely boys. I'd only seen Jacob when he was first born. He's four now! and Daniel is about 3 months older than Jay Jay. I reckon Jacob looks like Tim and Ma says Daniel is like Ingrid. Had fun playing in Jacob's den and washing Dan's surfer dude hair.

Saturday - 31st December

A lot more successful on the campervan front. Got the built in i-sight camera working with iStop Motion. Felt better for achieving something.

Depressed again when I had to take Ma to Dunhelm Mill though. And really depressed that my New Year's celebrations was playing cribbage with Nan. Maybe I should be more pushy with friends and invite/inflict myself. I guess the root of the problem though is just being such a failure at life. I really don't know what I did wrong. My life has just fallen apart, and I feel like I'm a complete for trusting God or believing that things will ever get better and He has a plan for me. Maybe my NY resolution should be to stop giving a damn about anything and to stop trying.