Fail

Am all fed up and frustrated. Up (relatively) early to start the movie of the LEGO campervan being made. Cannot get the crappy camera to work. It's just whiting out the whole desk. Adjusting the exposure achieves nothing. Just wasting time. Like all week. Was hoping to go away for New Years but no invites forthcoming. Getting P ed off here now.

Am being used as a chaffuer as Ma can't drive. Poor Bumble had to go to Anglia Square!! Added to the frustration and fed up ness.

Still did get to go see Timmykins and meet his two lovely boys. I'd only seen Jacob when he was first born. He's four now! and Daniel is about 3 months older than Jay Jay. I reckon Jacob looks like Tim and Ma says Daniel is like Ingrid. Had fun playing in Jacob's den and washing Dan's surfer dude hair.

Saturday - 31st December

A lot more successful on the campervan front. Got the built in i-sight camera working with iStop Motion. Felt better for achieving something.

Depressed again when I had to take Ma to Dunhelm Mill though. And really depressed that my New Year's celebrations was playing cribbage with Nan. Maybe I should be more pushy with friends and invite/inflict myself. I guess the root of the problem though is just being such a failure at life. I really don't know what I did wrong. My life has just fallen apart, and I feel like I'm a complete for trusting God or believing that things will ever get better and He has a plan for me. Maybe my NY resolution should be to stop giving a damn about anything and to stop trying.

On the ball city!

Claire had to work, so kindly gave me her season ticket, so I got to test my new coat and flask at the Norwich match. Was a great game, Norwich were fighting for it the whole time but in the end we lost 2-0 to spurs. We were somewhat outclassed and outpaced by Gareth Bale. Wes Hoolihan and Adam Drury were fab. Couldn't believe how tiny Wes is, especially compared to the Spurs players.. Adebayor is made entirely of legs!!

Thurs 29th Dec

Went to the city with Chalkie and Ma. Got some bargains. Was extremely restrained in the Animal store and Fat Face (left with only some Animal socks). Yummy hot chocolate in Cayleys.

Jon's in the evening (sans an ill Pops). Jay Jay was lovely. Loved playing with him then giving him his bath. He is a chip off the old block though...

Gutted.

Tues. Bank Holiday. Ping pong in the morning when my opponent finally got up. Fancied chips for dinner so went to Hemsby. It was shut. No Bingo, No Chips. Gutted. Did have a good play with the football on the beach and a very quick paddle. 

Now writing this on 1st Jan, so can't remember what we did in the evenings, but we have watched 2 of the 3 Great Expectations and the first HP (on OYN) and played crib, logo, scene it and Uno a lot.

Christmas.

Drove home on Christmas Eve. Nice drive back belting out Dean Martin and cheesy crimbo tunes. Had time to put the remaining pressies under the tree. My turn to drive this year so Bumble took us round to Sam's. Then back home for the MacBook. Then back round Sam's! Poor lady must have looked at a million photos of Jay Jay. Home to sort out my duffle coat and mittens then off to the city for the midnight mass service at St Peter Mancroft. Laughed at the same things I have for the last two or three years... the carol with the asses in and the memory of the old vicar lady tipping communion wine down some poor bloke's shirt. Also laughed on the way out when a different vicar shook my hand, so I asked her if she wanted to shake my mitten too!

No visit from Santa. Must be on the naughty list. No idea why though. Up early but still a last minute rush to get to chapel on time. I obviously haven't changed. Found it really hard though because everyone else has. All grown up with kids. I'm really crap at dealing with situations that scream at me "you're a failure, you have nothing"

Dinner was fairly calm. Just Nan and Chalkie round. Then cleared up just in time for Jay Jay's arrival. Was hilarious.. stomping around in his new boots and thinking his Thomas paddling pool was a changing mat and wearing my bee hat and eating my ice scraper and loving his Up book and doing the maddest/cutest laugh only in the corner by the door when on his dad's or my back. Shame I'm such an idiot and I messed up the video.

 Boxing day. Watched Peppa Pig with Jay, beat Jon at table tennis, after dinner they left and we watched Wizard of Oz while playing UNO.